good luck. but keep a good ear to your inner self, ignoring that fuker can lead to strange behavior.
Back in July she told me how hard it was dealing with our breakup - I kinda presumed she was in just as a good place as I was - sure I was fucking hurt and angry when I read her phone on April 4th this year (Easter Sunday) but I quickly moved past that and I’ve had a total fucking blast ever since we split and living at my moms for a few months and seeing all of my family on a regular basis was some of the most fun I’ve ever had….
So not only did she tell me that she was having a hard time but sometime in August I did some investigating and discovered she never actually slept with anybody - that definitely made this whole thing easier to swallow - granted her talking to another dude for emotional support while she’s going through a midlife crisis that I never even knew was happening is pretty fucked up; and then when I freaked out and left, her then soliciting other dudes for sex right away had me 100% convinced she was cheating…. Fast forward to July and August where she told me she was a complete wreck and then me finding out she didn’t sleep with anyone and I was able to put a lot of the previous shit aside so I could keep our family together
By beginning/mid September I was moved back in and honestly things are going really well - the intimacy is on a back burner that’s real hard to reach but we get along great for the most part / every now and again there’s a bad evening or two but soon after she feels bad and things go back to normal - it’s a hell of a rollercoaster but like I said, knowing she didn’t sleep with anyone and knowing that she was in no way having a good time caused me to decide that staying together for the kids was and is the best thing to do
My son shouldn’t be denied a father every day in his life because his mother can be a difficult person; and my relationship with her two kids shouldn’t be tossed out the window because she’s a difficult person…. Again, how she handled herself in the spring was beyond wrong but it’s a forgivable situation as far as I’m concerned; the alternative is me only seeing my kid a day or two per week and him eventually having some new asshole in his life that wants my boy to call him dad - I would be okay with that if his mother was as bad as things looked last spring but since that didn’t happen, I need to eat the shit sandwich that life is making me eat for a while and in due time her and I will be in a much better place….
There’s the latest update - we’re officially back together and ole Chuck’r is strapping himself to the rollercoaster ride for the greater good which is his family - his son and the two awesome human beings that he sees as his step children….
I’m kicking ass at this guys - it was a rough road a handful of months ago but I’m a pro at this now - no matter what we go through in life there’s always a light at the end of the tunnel - this will be worth it my dudes; I guarantee it…..